Lair of the Wolf

Ever noticed just how hard it is to actually reach a person? Even with all these gadgets and gizmos we carry around supposedly to make ourselves more reachable. So let's see now you can be unavialable via more ways..

E-Mail (if you're lucky, you get a reply, maybe within a week. You could write a letter and wait just as fast)

IM (Quick, simple, and you know within 5 minutes that the person has no intention of being at their desk)

Cell Phone (Yay, if the connection doesn't suck, they don't have it off, or muted, you might get a low-quality call. At least, till the next passer by makes them go "look at the kitty")

Voice Mail (Ooh, so they didn't answer. Which is all too common with these things. Leave a message. If they ever check it. You might get a reply. The winner is when you can't even do that. "The mailbox is full, Goodbye")

Text Message (Yeah, so they're going to see the phone when they didn't bother to answer it, yeah right.)

Office/Home Phone.. (Well, you're pretty sure they're not at their desk, so that leaves out office. and of course, you might not be trying if its a busines call if they're at home. That still assumes they're not outside or ignoring the call there too. Besides, there you have family and TV and fun distractions like that.)

Wow. so, by the time you waste all of those options, you've spent more time that you probably had. and came back with 0. When all you really probably needed was 3 minutes to ask a question, "are you free for lunch?", "want to come over later?" that kind of thing.

So, where did I put those smoke signals?

From http://www.mozillazine.org/talkback.html?article=7479:

"The Mozilla Foundation's community marketing site Spread Firefox has been hacked for the second time in less than three months. According to an email sent to registered users of the site, unknown remote attackers exploited a vulnerability in the TWiki wiki software, which was installed on the server but not actually used by the public website. The TWiki software has now been disabled. The Spread Firefox Team does not believe that any sensitive data was taken but they have shut down the site as a precaution. Only Spread Firefox was affected by the security breach; no other Mozilla Foundation or Mozilla Corporation sites have been hacked and the flaw does not affect users of Mozilla software."

This is what happens when you have a website run by people who do their own thing entirely, who obviously don't pay enough attention to keeping things up to date, without keeping the mozilla system administrators in the loop, and to think, the new version of SFX is being done behind closed doors with limited community interaction. This should send plenty of messages of safety about a site that's already been hacked twice, that they're still not being open, and as a result, its the only mozilla site to be hacked. I think its time that the Mozilla Foundation/Corporation take some responsibility for what happens with SpreadFirefox.com.

Personally, I'm no longer comfortable with the way SpreadFirefox is maintained. I don't believe its admins are doing an acceptable job. (This is seperate from the Mozilla Sysadmins, who are doing the best they can) I'd like to see SFX have the ability for users to delete their account. Since obviously they're not safe. Might also make the number of accounts more realistic.

I also find it interesting, that Asa, spreadfirefox admin and frequent mozilla blogger, fails to mention on his blog at all either hacking. :-) Guess the only mozilla news is good news.

So, ok. Its my birthday again.
I'd feel better about it if I actually had done something in the last year, to change my life in some way. :-/ Oh well.

WTF did the last year go?

"I don't know" isn't a good answer when you ask somebody for constructive criticism (or just praise) on a creation.

It doesn't help that I only really function with some sort of feedback and in the absense of it, I just want to quit. :-/

I have a hard time getting the ideas in my head, onto paper, or even better, actually done. I have unrealisitic goals, where I have this constant need to impress and if I don't feel like it reaches out and grabs then its absolute garbage. Its a very black and white view of things that are an art, and its because I rest their value on what other people think, and not how I feel about them. I'm never happy with anything I do. Its always, not good enough. Eventually, this is like a poison. It needs to die. Though, I really don't know how to kill it. How do you go from hating everything, to having a realistic self-image and being able to see not only what does suck, but also, and perhaps more importantly, what doesn't. Sure, everything can be improved upon, after awhile. That doesn't mean if it doesn't come out in its first revision as flawless it should be scrapped. It just means things change, skills improve, style changes, etc.

Maybe I'm just trying *too* hard and completely missing the point. I just don't know.

Ugh...

I can learn to resist
Anything but temptation
I can learn to coexist
With anything but pain

I can learn to compromise
Anything but my desires
I can learn to get along
With all the things I can't explain

I can learn to resist
Anything but frustration
I can learn to persist
With anything but aiming low

I can learn to close my eyes
To anything but injustice
I can learn to get along
With all the things I don't know

You can surrender
Without a prayer
But never really pray
Pray without surrender

You can fight
Without ever winning
But never ever win
Without a fight

I can learn to resist
Anything but temptation
I can learn to coexist
With anything but pain

I can learn to compromise
Anything but my desires
I can learn to get along
With all the things I can't explain
-- Rush - Resist (from Test for Echo)