Stay low.
Soft, dark, and dreamless,
Far beneath my nightmares and loneliness.
I hate me,
For breathing without you.
I don’t want to feel anymore for you.
Grieving for you,
I’m not grieving for you.
Nothing real love can’t undo,
And though I may have lost my way,
All paths lead straight to you.
I long to be like you,
Lie cold in the ground like you.
Halo,
Blinding wall between us.
Melt away and leave us alone again.
Humming, haunted somewhere out there.
I believe our love can see us through in death.
I long to be like you,
Lie cold in the ground like you.
There’s room inside for two and I’m not grieving for you,
I’m coming for you.
You’re not alone,
No matter what they told you, you’re not alone.
I’ll be right beside you forevermore.
I long to be like you, sis,
Lie cold in the ground like you did.
There’s room inside for two and I’m not grieving for you.
And as we lay in silent bliss,
I know you remember me.
I long to be like you,
Lie cold in the ground like you.
There’s room inside for two and I’m not grieving for you,
I’m coming for you.
— Evanescence (The Open Door), 2006
I feel I underestimate how much you hurt. You may long to be like me, but I long to be like you. You impress me, you always have. I envy your knowledge and accomplishments. Through my own emotions I sometimes fail to see that the only thing I truly suck at is relationships. I love you, always have, probably always will, and I can’t stand to hurt you. I don’t really understand the entire set of lyrics as it relates to you and I or to you and your present situation, but I do want to understand. I want to help you feel whole again.
Please dont shut me out of your life. I need to understand what is happening. This post is predated and is about death, that freaks me out a bit, please say something to me. I miss you and I dont know what else to do or what to say. Without clear instruction from you, I can’t know how to handle this situation with you.